Turning 28 !!

It seems little unbelievable. I am almost the same age, that I feared will make me old. The good part being I am equally irresponsible as I was when I was 22. How does it feel? Suffocating, because I am at the crossroads of life, where I dun know which road my life will take professionally or personally. I dun know where I will be next year this time and doing what. When I was 22, I had perceived the American Dream. Now I am living the epilogue. I dreamed to own a Mac, I have 1. I dreamed to be in the glitter of a big American city, writing this from Los Angeles. Have I done enough. Did I dream big ? Or is fulfilling any dream a beautiful self overwhelming process in itself ?


P.S. I started this blog when I was about to turn 28. I am publishing when I am about to turn 32 :) Speaks for itself.

"Happy"ness

[1/16/15, 6:08:02 PM] Ameet Nanda: I feel good today
[1/16/15, 6:08:10 PM] Ameet Nanda: not because I am screwed
[1/16/15, 6:08:24 PM] Ameet Nanda: not because I have made my wife very unhappy
[1/16/15, 6:08:33 PM] Ameet Nanda: nor because I flunked an exam
[1/16/15, 6:10:15 PM] Ameet Nanda: I felt nice watching the sun set, because I know today is a Friday and my wife will be with me for next 2 days, I know that if I put little more effort, I can get to the top, I think I understood few things about myself, I feel like little chatty just for no reason, I feel like writing....I feel I have a motive in life, chase sunsets, watch them, get happy and write down things

Root 3.

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg

Life eej hard

Here's a really short short story !!

It is not sensible to be a bad guy. It is not sensible that the bad guys take away the best. It is not sensible to become a bad guy because of that. It is not sensible that the best would go with the bad guys. It is not sensible to call the best the best if they are with the bad guys. It is not sensible to call the bad guys bad if the best are with them.

Think sensibly.

Orkreboot !!

Finally .... I overcame the dilemma.

I deleted my Orkut account. Just a reboot though, will bring it up again. May be not. "Never say never again". I do not hate Orkut. I am not anti social-networking. I am not hiding. I am not scared. What's the reason? What's my reason? My reason, there is no solid reason. Who needs a reason to delete something which can be recreated. Who wants to recreate something he is deleting? I have no reason.

Yesterday was a hectic day. Spent 13 hours of the day at a stretch playing "Serious Sam 2" and drinking whiskey. The plan was to have a look and feel of the game, but as I kept on playing I believed we could end up things in a single go. Of course had to break twice, for lunch and dinner. But at the end of it, I couldn't, considering the fact that I had been drinking all day, so dint feel like towards the end, also considering that it was a Sunday night and not a Saturday or Friday night. It was game on till 2.

Deleted a few old sms messages as well. Feels like redemption.

It was 2 in the night, my fingers were almost trembling while I applied pressure on the keys, to strafe away from the forces of Mental, the dark lord in the game. But then if I miss, they would hit. There are no quick saves in life. Life's just like that. If you do not keep moving, evil powers will hit you with ease. So the best way is to keep strafing, and keep running.

Yea, running, that is what I plan to do from tomorrow :). I quit smoking. Now I should start running, which should very much prove that things are slowly moving into the actual cogs.

Planning to delete a few more things, and to add a few more.

What they said !! (about me)

Nishant (6/16/07)

Here is the chairman of a World famous billion dollar company NAK. Don't ask the expansion of NAK.This guy is with me since last 5yrs. We were classmates. I met this guy near Roby Bhai's Pan shop. We gave each other a casual smile and tried to talk. But we couldn't find any topic to discuss. That was the first meet. I thought "What a decent boy?"(my mind cheated me). Then one day he came to Hostel. Now he was my neighbor. Since than we enjoyed a lot. Lot means lllllloooootttttttttttt......continuing. All those bottles of 8pm, vonamor and all those drags of mj that we shared made our friendship stronger and stronger. A smile comes in face when ever I remember those Exam time preparations. making cheats together, laugh sessions in the nights just before exam, going to gym and chena rabidi,ride on ameets safari(kinetic not tata).......and lot more.



SUNIL (3/12/07)

kyon ki aaj kuch write karne ko mann kar raha hai isliye socha ki...

today its naks bday...n i think i m going to write this on a perfect day...
nak...the name itself reveils a small smile on ur face when u call him....
still remember tha days we spent together or in the so called gang...
starting from e-block to a-block and finally to c-block.....
a boy with full of energy...but what can he do...laziness overtook all his energy
luvs the way he runs after hitting the ball so hard ...(:P)
likes the way he encourages u....
hats off to this gr8 frnd n gr8 man....
thanx for being there with me n i know u will b there always..."rahibu na"
with luv
s u n i l

K(3/5/07)

Well... Where do I begin.. Have never seen him except for some pics ( I must say, his bald look is not at all appealing!!) over the past many years.. have seen many shades of him ( the good, the bad 'n the ugly)... He can be a real sweetheart.. knows how to swoooon a girl ( tends to be romantic at times).. Has an admirable imagination.. A very good listener... A laudable "talker"... His writing skills are quite creditable (believe me, can write a best seller someday if he wishes to)... His sense of humour is bit on the low side ( his PJs are umm...er..!!).. Okay..so all this was about the " Ameet Nanda".. talking about him as a friend.. he's really sticked with me through everything, tolerated all my mood swings... initially when we met I just loved showing him my Attitude ( with a big A) 'n he in turn did the same.. I've had loads of memorable moments with him... the marathons we used to have.. sharing songs.. discussing weather.. me continuously nagging him to shave 'n shower.. the fights... the long mails... my "the" letter to him.. wen i just met him.. he actually seemed quite weird to me.. but somehow we ended up being very compatible.. he's been my best friend.. sometimes my best enemy...boy how I hated u at times ;) (dun worry, it was all temporary!)... my honest adviser.. an even more honest critic... he's been everything I could've ever asked in a friend.. though the word's too small to describe what he's been to me.

note: A biig hug to u... thanks for helping me live.. may God always be with you. Stay happy ( u deserve it baby..).. 'n stay the same. You are the best player i've known in 'The Game'. Cheers to u!!


Kaushik(3/4/07)

Ameet-one of the worst worst friends i ever had,so ugly,so bald,so devastating..we came to know each other thru me..i still remember the first day i had talked to him..tht was just a "hi",and his "nonsense" smile.& thts the beginning of a pathetic relation of two friends..oh wht a waste of time we had!!thanks that we are not in the same company..hope we wont enjoy the same bt so lucky are they who r nt gonna b there.
This person always makes me feel so useless whenevr am with him(i dunno why:P)
thanks for being a rude & rowdy listener.always stay un-happy..and ya..just 5 days yaar,ro yaar,senti maar yaar.comeon yaar.:)):D
"Smile, an everlasting smile A smile can never bring you near to me,Don't ever let me find you right,Coz that would never bring a tear to me.."
with hate..



Purbarag(11/25/06)

Ameet....hmmmm ! wat to talk about him?? hes is from the same place as mine but we never met till graduation and KIIT. I remeber i met him for the first he had been staying alone in a room meant to be a closet. I dragged him with me and since then we hav been best of buddies. This guy is cool! He wd study just before the exam and score a gracious 8 which i never managed to do. He is very lazy. He wd clean up his bed just before his ,in case, parents wd be visiting the hostel. We had an amazing grp in coll though i joined in late. The movies , the outings at the Shikharchandi, all haunt me! The thing I always to snatch from Ameet was his spark ( dont be confused ... I am talking about his vehicle). He was gr8. It wd stop working whenever he used it. It was fun being wid Ameet. We wd make a beeline for the babes in the evening at the Juice Center! U remember Manisha Joshi of course. I dont know I never write testimonials but i felt like writing for u Ameet!



Backing up everything, fore sighting the deletion act of my Orkut account soon.

2 years, no fluke

Hard to believe, but my work ex will read 2 years and some days from today for another year !!
It took a lot of me,to have achieved this. Now I feel, I am a bit more matured, I understand that I go to my office to work. I feel that work is not play. I feel girls in office are colleagues, and guys in office are colleagues as well. I address people who are 10 years senior to me with their names, with ease. That sick leaves should only be taken when you are actually sick. That most important mails are the ones from office and not from your girl friend. That deadlines are set to be met. That coffee/tea are highly addictive.

I understand that there is no shortcut to success, that another 33 odd years, would be not so long a journey, but time after that would for sure be a pain in the ass.

When I try to remember the me I was 2 years back, and the me that I am today, nothing much has changed. Just that Mom has spoke to me a couple of times about marrying [LOL] and you will never see a cigarette in my hand [gave it up coz I am worried about global warming]. I have stopped fretting about life and office.

I used to scream and complain and kick the wall and cry over a healthy package and a good house, of lost love, of company policies, then He told me something, and everything changed.

Somehow, today morning, the weather is English and I feel happy.








He is an alter ego. Who told me this is not important, who made me realize this is.

Elevators are not erratic.

Back to blogging after long, I am here so that I do not disappoint my fans or people who follow my blogs. Hey, guess what, this blog has something to do with disappointment.

Aim : Trying to figure out why not always the best guys finish first.

Scenario 1: Consider this scene. Read carefully

--Begin--
There are two trees, one on each side of a wall of an ancient fort. The fort was built by a king. One day he went to see a "fakir"(Adapting to the classic method of italicizing when "Not so Non-Indian" authors refer to "Indian" terms in Italics.)who was well renowned for bringing prosperity to people. The fakir gave him a rupee and said get whatever you want to buy with it and it will bring prosperity to your country. Disappointed, the king went to the bazaar wondering what he would buy with just a rupee. He saw a person selling seeds. So he approached him and asked how much for a rupee, the keeper replied, as many as you can lift with a finger.

First answer this, how would you keep your finger to lift the maximum seeds with 1 finger ?

The king dipped his hands into the pile and lifted only 2 seeds. Many smart asses like you and me, would have first dipped their fingers into a viscous liquid, so that more seeds would stick to the fingers.

Moving on with the story, he planted the two seeds, one on each side of the fort wall, and later the one inside was healthier than the one outside, but the one outside, bore a lot more fruits [Say 1:100]. King was amazed, when he took better care of the one inside the fort, and it was more healthy, how could the one outside bear better and more fruits? But his question was, how will it bring prosperity to the country ??
--End--

Elevators solve a lot of priority related problems of our life. We can actually learn a lot from them. They know when to go up, when to come down, who should wait and who should not. Now I will answer the king's question with another example, what I call as the classic elevator example.

--Begin--
One day I was having lunch on the penultimate floor of a moderately tall building. After I finished my food, I headed towards the elevator. There were 2 elevators on either side of the building. Now when I went there this is what I observed. I was on the 11th floor. One of the elevator was on the 9th floor and one was on the 5th floor and both were going down. So which elevator should I seek. Forget about me, which one would you ? Is it not the one that that is on the fifth and going down. I did both. Now it happened so, that the other elevator(the one on ninth floor and going down) reached back first. How could an elevator possibly, moving 4 floors behind, come back first??
--End--
Before you see my explanation, I should be convinced you got the problem.



Now the answer to this solves the king's question. Lets assume the scene on any floor. People who see the elevator that is moving ahead, will seek it for sure. Now lets say there are people on all floors. So there will be more number of seeks for the elevator that is moving ahead, than the one that is moving behind. So it will slow down and the one lagging will lead.

Now that's a periodic behavior. Not only that, if there were smart asses like me on all the floors, all of them would seek the one that is behind. Isnt it ?? think of the consequences then. And if the building is too tall, say 1000 storeys, then also the behavior becomes highly unpredictable.

Now the king being dumb, we assume, all his subjects will be dumber. And as the system of government is monarchy, we assume it is not a big kingdom, even if it is , it wont stay for a long period of time. Also we assume that the area of observation is restricted to just both sides of the fort.

Can you think of any answer to the kings question ? Comment now...